Heather Gold

The Heather Gold Show: Everyday Courage rundown

What happens when you get a pharmaceutical venture capitalist, a trans punk performer and a Sudanese refugee together over baked goods? Plenty.My first guest Antoun Nabhan struggles with the issue of heroism and courage in everyday life. In his office and plane-bound job, he wonders how and where the Courage shows up.Lynnee Breedlove demonstrated and some immediately, performed an excerpt from his solo piece One Freak Show about his genderqueer experience using public bathrooms. If he’s in the women’s bathroom, he gets told “there’s a man in the women’s bathroom.” The men’s bathroom is, apparently easier, in part becasue of the lack of eye contact and direct behaviour. You’ll have to listen to the podcast to catch all the nuances. We did have quite a discussion about bathroom behaviour. Lynnee demo’d the “piece- de’ beau” (I’m not sure how one spells it) that allows him to pee standing up. Look out Justin Timberlake, Lynnee’s got his own special present.Gadet Riek gave a new meaning and insight to everyday courage as he spoke about escaping Sudan on foot with his older brother. The greatest power of his story comes from the everyday nature of his act he reveals in the context of its time and place. No matter what questions he was asked by any of the guests or audience, his answers came back to the simple fact that it was the reality in which he found himself. There was no great moment, no epiphany, no John Willliams soundtrack letting him or anyone else know the greatness of his acts. “There was no time. We had to keep moving.”

Highlights and Links

One man in the audience asked Gadet about his feelings about his fellow students at USF. “They don’t realize how privileged they are.” Gadet responded by saying he does not resent or begrudge his classmates a thing, nor does he feel they should make their lives and different than they are. he himself would have accepted a life that came with more physical ease. Judging them “would change nothing about my life.”It was clear from the discussion and the connection between Lynnee and Gadet that courage is not about life without fear. It is, in part, about complete acceptance of oneself and life the way it is. With there is no need or inclination to judge others.

• Lost Boys of Sudan
• Save Darfur

The Heather Gold Show: Receiving Rundown

Saturday November 11, 2006

i first heard about my first guest, love artist Kathe Izzo, during the Intimacy show, when Michelle Tea mentioned experincing intimacy when she was being loved by Kathy at a tremedous distance, across the country. “It just made me feel so good to know that three was someone out there loving me,” she said.

That seemed fascinating to me at the time, in an anthropological way. I didn’t understand that on a visceral level until I was injured just weeks before the Receiving show, and experienced asking for and receiving love at a distance from many people while recovering from my elbow surgery (I broke my funny bone. Comic karma).

Kathe takes love to new depths and certainly breadths. It is literally all she has done for years. She is a performance artist from the visual art tradition of installations. Her interest in the boundary between life and art drew her to the area of love and she had for years loved people, of every stripe in person at museum installations, at their homes for a day, or even at across the country while they are working at a bookstore, (as Michelle Tea was) sending them loving emails that come from a completely present place of loving acceptance.
While Kathe acknowledged that she is comfortable giving, the topic of Receiving was a challenge sh is working on. She has receintly been loaned a sum for career investment by a sweetie who wants to take care of her, a new adjustment she is making with her decision to value herself as she does everyone she will love (which is anyone)

Former San Francisco 49ers Tight End Dr. Jamie Williams gave a profound life and football receiving lesson. He picked a random woman out of the audience to teach who turned out to have quarterbacked her Nebraska high school team’s powder puff team. (I love how the midwest tries to mix a cosmetic term in there to make it seem like the girls aren’t really playing football).

Jamie had great chemistry with Kathe which I really enjoyed. I love it when the show brings together people who might not otherwise meet. Both Kathe and Jamie seemed to be coming at life questions in some similar ways, despite their very different pursuits in film and football (Jamie) and performance art (Kathe).

Shanan Carney, also known as the Voice of Tivo discussed her recuperation from her recent knee surgery. A neighbor kindly agreed to bring her ice every day to fill a special machine which cooled the swelling. This small act of kindness has prompted Shanan to soon launch a vlog called “Random Acts of Kindness” based on the premise that vrey small, meaningful acts can make a huge difference. Both of us, based on our injuries, agreed that receiving can make one feel compelled to give. Shanan called her doctor to find out who else had a surgery and needed ice. She later came over to my place, complete with elf costume, cohort and camera crew to loan me the ice machine and ice to cool my elbow, prepping for the vlog.

Audience regular Scott brought a fabulous Linzer tort. I will ask him for the recipe to post here.

Highlights and Links

• Even though Kathe has gone to the home of complete strangers in New York City to love them for the day, she has never felt unsafe. “If I am giving them everything they need,then what more can they want?” She has held her ground by clearly taking care of her own needs and letting those who are emotionally needy that her own aegis matters.
• Jamie Williams – “To catch the ball, you have to want to catch the ball.”
• Kathe Izzo’s True Love Project
• In order to truly receiv one has to not give back to the giver right away. This is something of a refusal of the kindness (and whatever else being given to you). If you feel compelled to give yourself, then as people say, “pay it forward.”

Everyday Courage (audio podcast)

12/8/06 Heather mixes pharmaceutical VC Antoun Nabhan, punk legend and trans leader Lynnee Breedlove, Darfur survivor Gadet Riek, and the people formelry known as the audience. How do we remember and stand up for our principles in everyday challenges, whether that means saying no to a business deal, going the men’s bathroom or taking another step?

Listen to the mp3 of the entire show (90 min)

Receiving (audio podcast)

Heather conversates with love artist Kathe Izzo, Superbowl Champion, tight end and filmmaker Dr. Jamie Williams, Shanan Carney (aka the Voice of TiVo) whose debilitating knee surgery is teaching her first hand about the art of receiving and the people formerly known as the audience.
Is it always better to give than receive? Why is it sometimes harder?

Listen to the mp3 of the entire show (90 min)

Heather Gold Show: Learning rundown

Last night’s show on Learning had a great full house which participated more than ever. Is it getting cliche that I keep writing first lines in these rundown’s full of exultation? If it’s not such a great night, I will definitely say so. My general inclination is to be inclusive and listen to everyone, but the show does need to watch for interruptions whether its from audience members or myself as one audience member kindly pointed out to me after the show. I’m not being ironic. She gave me some good feedback. One of the threads that had the most traction throughout the night was gender. Do we learn better in sex segregated environments as one audience member Don suggested? Does the reported increased sexual activity of gay people affect the kids they raise? That question prompted a heavy number of guest and audience comments.Early childhood education expert Tracy Burt said that the research neither supports that LGBT parents with kids have increased sexual behaviour or kids who turn out much different that any other, except that they’re slightly more sensitized to inequality. I commented that I don’t know any gay or queer people who are in out relationships that have had any children accidentally. An early childhood educator in the audience and guest Tracy said that the said that the elements that matter most for learning and growing as a child are: responsiveness, dependability, stability and a few more things that I can post after I hear all the tape 🙂 A woman of East Indian origin told a hilarious story about how she learned about sex when her mother was chastising her brother for making so much noise with his wife the night before: “Can’t you be a considerate like your father? He did his business and turned over and went right to sleep.”Our first guest, comedian Bill Santiago talked about his obsession with tango and what a difference it makes to be exposed to music early in life. He also said there are 3 year old kids who can tango. Exposure came up again many times as something that enables us to learn things. Bill told us the story of the first time he tangoed and was led by another man who was constantly disappointed in him. “He wasn’t gentle,” but Bill overcame the trauma to come back to the dance two years later. He also had a hard time learning learning swing because there was no syncopation. Tango has obsessed him because “the only men who are really pretty good at it are all over 70. So I got time.”Bill also spoke up about the importance of fun in learning. “I was home recently and looked through my old report cards. I thought I’d done well, but I had a paper with an F+. That’s really an insult…”we know you tried and you still failed.” He said that kids aren’t going to bother learning something unless it’s fun.Singer Michelle Citrin showed how easily we learn cues with her song Who I Am. Michelle spoke a lot about the need to survive as a driver of learning. If you need to know something you’ll learn it. For example, even though she grew up in a two-language household, her Hebrew got rapidly better when a recent trip to Israel forced her to speak the language in order to eat and navigate each day. She also spoke of the value of a means of self-expression in teenage years, like a guitar.The value of sensory-motor and musical techniques for teaching was discussed. Apparently music and dance are extremely valuable ways to teach kids who have difficulty in school. Unfortunately, if you want to making a living at them, as Bill pointed out, they’re less valued.Tracy Burt had an awful lot to teach us. There was so much chunky goodness, I’ll put most of it in the highlights below.

Highlights and Links

• Tango Video Project
• “We are always learning. Kids in school are always learning. The question is what is it they are learning?” Tracy Burt
• You need to have a nurturing, reponsive person in your life as a young child in order to lay the foundation to be able to learn almost anything the rest of your life. There’s another opportunity as an adolescent to get this, but then after 25 in because extremely difficult.”
• We remember 10% of what we hear, 20% of what we see and hear, 50% of what we see, hear and do and 80% of what we teach another person.
• There are 9 temperments that are set biologically
• Our brains are “plastic,” meaning they are able to change our entire lives. But the most important tendencies are set by 3.
• Audience member Samuel said that,as hard as he’s tried, he can’t seem to learn a foreign language. One of our regulars, Beverly, was sitting near Samual and also turns out to be a linguistic therapist. Evidently we learn language by chunking. To encourage both necessity and desire, Michelle, Bill and the audience suggested he find a French lover who does not speak English at all.
• We all learned the word rhythmicity, which describes an aspect of temperment. Do you like life to be steady or for the pace to vary?

Inheritance: How do we value the past in the present? (audio podcast)

Heather conversates with Vintage painting curator Rob Delamater, hora motivator Jill Slater, Anthony Marshall, creator of pioneering hip hop showcase and MTV show Lyricist Lounge (Biggie Smalls, Slick Rick, Mos Def + Sean “Puffy” Combs) and the people formerly known as the audience.

Listen to the mp3 of the entire show (90 min)

Self-Made (audio podcast)

Heather conversates with Caterina Fake, co-founder of Flickr, Dave Chappelle opener W. Kamau Bell, celebrated psychologist Dr Lillian Rubin (The Transcendent Child) and the people formerly known as the audience.
Listen to the mp3 of the entire show (90 min)

The Heather Gold Show: Self-Made (video podcast)

Watch the show (5 Min)How does one become self-made? Guests: Caterina Fake, co-founder of Flickr, Dave Chappelle opener W. Kamau Bell and celebrated psychologist, activist and painter Dr Lillian Rubin (The Transcendent Child).

Heather Gold Show rundown—Self-Made

After the show: Caterina, me and my sweetie Stacey sandwiched inbetween. Photo: Deb Schultz

We had a great sold out show last night. Many thanks to my great guests and audience for the conversation. Self-made is a rich topic and there’s so much more to it that we could get into last night. Flickr’s Caterina Fake discussed her self-made path as influenced by a mix of her Phillipino immigrant mother’s ambition for her and an inability to stay committed to things that didn’t interest her. A combination of getting fired and being passionate about new things kept moving her forward in life. It was only when her company hadn’t succeeded financially with their clever, postmodern online endeavor Game Never Ending “just enough fuel in the tank” to get something out, that Flickr was born.
Lillian Rubin observed that timing, luck and the larger social movements are an enormous part of success and being self-mad. For example, the Web came along at a time that made a huge difference for Caterina who had already been through many jobs and careers as a painter, Wall Street numbers cruncher and dive shop clerk in land-locked Arkansas. Caterina laughingly agreed that she hadn’t stayed up nights as a kid dreaming about creating the world’s leading photo-sharing site.

Lillian had so many insights that you’ll have to wait for the podcast to hear it all, but she was able to draw sustainable choices to “living in reality” (which often meant compromise without entirely sacrificing what makes you happy). She also made many astute connections between our opportunities and the social movements that created them (ie. working part-time or 40 hours a week because of the movement to create a 40-hour work week; her own academic possibilities opened because of the women’s movement, Kamau’s opportunities opened because black comedy wasn’t always available to more than a black audience. In fact Eddie Cantor and Al Jolson used to do it in blackface. To which I quipped, “In other words it took Jews to do black comedy? Now that Kamau’s here at the JCC maybe we’ve come full-circle). Lillian warned against the supporting the mythical belief that just anyone in America can make it “from the Bronx ghettoes to Nob Hill” as she had, since that just wasn’t a realistic substitute for social policy or a community committed to a sustainable life for everyone. Everyone does not have the same psychological resources and external resources and opportunities available to them. Her book The Transcendent Child was mentioned, which I highly recommend. It explains why some people come out of traumatic situations and achieve “success” and others “fall by the wayside.” One element of this is often disidentifying with ones own family.

Kamau’s set rocked and he talked about dropping out of the University of Pennsylvia, and making other choices in his life that would let him pursue stand-up. This is what Lillian likes to call “living in reality.” Josh in the audience wanted to know how to reconcile his passion for start-up companies, jazz piano and his solid and good but unstimulating job. Kamau: ” Are you good at jazz piano? I mean seriously?” The audience brought up so many good points that as Caterina observed afterwards at the bar, we should think about doing a series on this topic because it’s so rich. We talked about jobs that paid less but helped people be happier in their life, jobs that make you sick and thanks to Craig in the audience, working because of reponsibility. Craig says that he works 6 days a week and he never gets sick as a response to others in the room who believe that many are worn down by the work they do. Responsibility and duty to others and one’s own passion and internal path. This is a topic I’d like to be able to get into more. There’s financial responsibility to family and others as Craig pointed out and then there’s a deep motional and psychological sense of responsibility to family as Caterina, Deb Schulz, Judith and others pointed out at the bar after.

I’ve always wanted to know : where are all the hero’s journey stories about girls and women? Ok there’s The Wizard of Oz and Phillip Pullman‘s Dark Materials Trilogy. But these heroines are orphaned (my childhood fantasy game, now that’s a show in itself). So often women and girls are afraid to become oursleves if we feel it will hurt our families. So we either close down or try to bring everyone with us.

Insights and highlights:

• Unlikely risks that move you forward often happen when you are pushed beyond where you would normally go. The leap forward is not made by cool, analytic strategic planning but absolute necessity and burned bridges.
• HG: “How do you spend that time when you’re up late at night servous coming up with new ideas rather than saying “I suck.” Caterina: Your responsibility to others who believe in you (work for you, invest in you etc). The way she explained it it didn’t sound all self-confident and relaxed, It still sounded scary and uncertain. But they did it anyway.
• guest Kamau Bell observing that “passion can make you miserable.”
• guest Caterina Fake commenting that “entrepreneur is French for “can’t keep a job.”
• Buy Lillian’s book The Transcendent Child
• Jeff Garlin: “If you have something to fall back on, then you fall back.” (ok he wasn’t in the show but I love this line and it’s pertinent. Jeff, you’re welcome anytime.)

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